Cluster A · Singles · 02
war with myself
Stimmen: NOX → GRIM · ~69 BPM half-time
Bürgerkrieg im eigenen Kopf. Der Feind in jeder Zeile ist er selbst: die eigenen Hände, der eigene Name, das eigene Spiegelbild. Darüber liegt eine ruhige Geste — „pass the salt“ — die am Ende wiederkehrt: Der Krieg ist unsichtbar und dauerhaft, sie erfährt nie davon.
Songtext
Intro — NOX, gesprochen
> Szene: Kerze, Wein. she lit the candle, poured the wine I'm already gone
Verse 1 — NOX, kalt
hand under my jaw, I nod on time yeah — sure — mm, butter knife on porcelain eyes on her, the truth stuck sideways in my throat she's telling me about her day and I'm not in the room
Hook — NOX, hohl
you ask if I'm okay I say "yeah" and pass the salt
Verse 2 — NOX
> Die letzte Zeile bricht auf „idea" in einen GRIM-Schrei über. fork dragging the plate, the TV low she reaches for my hand — I let her, I don't feel it she says she loves me, I say it back on time I'm not even here, and she's got no idea
GRIM — Vorbote/Eruption
> ~0:36 hintergründig, ~0:56 vorne, Echo auf „salt"; als GRIM-Scream. …and pass the salt!
Bridge — GRIM steigt auf
something's coming up my throat and I can't swallow it down keep smiling, keep still, don't let it out — too late
Breakdown — GRIM, geschrien
FUCK IT — I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE! RUN, CRAWL, SCREAM, GET OUT OF MY SKIN! WHY ARE YOU KIND WHEN I'M THIS FUCKING SICK? YOU MADE ME DINNER AND I CAN'T EVEN LOOK AT YOU! YOUR TENDERNESS IS THE KNIFE AND IT'S GUTTING ME ALIVE! I'M ROTTING AT YOUR TABLE AND YOU'LL NEVER KNOW!
Outro — GRIM, brechend
CAN'T YOU SEE I'M SHATTERING? BEHIND THIS FACE I'M BREAKING! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS —
Reset — Rückkehr in den Raum
> SIE, weiblich, verschwommen aus dem Nebel und dann klar; danach ER (NOX), tot/ruhig. you okay, honey? yeah. just tired. (pass the salt)