Cluster A · Singles · 02
war with myself
Voices: NOX → GRIM · ~69 BPM half-time
A civil war inside one skull. The enemy in every line is himself: his own hands, his own name, his own reflection. Over it lies one calm gesture — pass the salt — and it returns at the end: the war is invisible and permanent, and she never finds out.
Lyrics
Intro — NOX, gesprochen
> Szene: Kerze, Wein. she lit the candle, poured the wine I'm already gone
Verse 1 — NOX, kalt
hand under my jaw, I nod on time yeah — sure — mm, butter knife on porcelain eyes on her, the truth stuck sideways in my throat she's telling me about her day and I'm not in the room
Hook — NOX, hohl
you ask if I'm okay I say "yeah" and pass the salt
Verse 2 — NOX
> Die letzte Zeile bricht auf „idea" in einen GRIM-Schrei über. fork dragging the plate, the TV low she reaches for my hand — I let her, I don't feel it she says she loves me, I say it back on time I'm not even here, and she's got no idea
GRIM — Vorbote/Eruption
> ~0:36 hintergründig, ~0:56 vorne, Echo auf „salt"; als GRIM-Scream. …and pass the salt!
Bridge — GRIM steigt auf
something's coming up my throat and I can't swallow it down keep smiling, keep still, don't let it out — too late
Breakdown — GRIM, geschrien
FUCK IT — I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE! RUN, CRAWL, SCREAM, GET OUT OF MY SKIN! WHY ARE YOU KIND WHEN I'M THIS FUCKING SICK? YOU MADE ME DINNER AND I CAN'T EVEN LOOK AT YOU! YOUR TENDERNESS IS THE KNIFE AND IT'S GUTTING ME ALIVE! I'M ROTTING AT YOUR TABLE AND YOU'LL NEVER KNOW!
Outro — GRIM, brechend
CAN'T YOU SEE I'M SHATTERING? BEHIND THIS FACE I'M BREAKING! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS —
Reset — Rückkehr in den Raum
> SIE, weiblich, verschwommen aus dem Nebel und dann klar; danach ER (NOX), tot/ruhig. you okay, honey? yeah. just tired. (pass the salt)